Today I have the sweet Heather Frost on the blog. She has decided to share something personal of Kate’s with us – hope you enjoy it.
First, a little about the book Seers.
For Kate Bennet, surviving the car wreck that killed her parents means big changes and even bigger problems. As she begins to see auras and invisible people, Kate must learn to trust Patrick O’Donnell, a handsome Guardian, or risk her life being overrun with Demons. She soon realizes that both she and her heart are in big-time trouble.
Available October 4, 2011
For this guest post, I’d like to give a sort of preview into Seers. My main character, Kate Bennett, isn’t much of a journal writer, but this unsent letter was found in a notebook inside her second desk drawer, two weeks before the book’s beginning. Getting into her innermost thoughts might just help readers better understand her, and what she’s been going through. So even though this letter is extremely personal to her, I’m going to share it.
Mom and Dad,
It’s been almost two months now. Some days I feel like its been years, but more often it feels like it all happened this morning. The accident, the hospital, the cemetery. Physically, I’m fine. But I’m still in pain, and I’m starting to think I’ll always struggle to hide the hurt. I’m not myself anymore. I don’t really even know who I am now. Grandma and Grandpa have been wonderful, but I know they worry about me. I guess I need to try even harder to hide my what I’ve been feeling. Jenna and Josie seem to be coping well. So well, I’m a bit jealous of them. But in the end, I’m just relieved that they can move on so easily. I wouldn’t want them to be going through what I am.
I don’t really know why I’m writing this. No one’s even going to see this but me, because it’s never going to leave this room. It’s never going to get to you. But still, it’s better that I write out my frustrations, rather than scream. Because the truth is, I’m not getting better. I feel empty, but heavy at the same time. I have to drag myself out of bed every morning; lie to myself, and think it will be worth facing another day. If I didn’t have Lee, I’d be a complete wreck. She’s been my best support through all of this. The truest friend anyone could ever have.
And then there’s Aaron.
He doesn’t understand what I need right now. Not that I can really blame him—I hardly know what I need. After the accident, I told him I wanted to slow down our relationship, and he was completely understanding. We had our first real kiss since the accident only a couple weeks ago. But I didn’t feel anything, and it only got worse when I realized how much he enjoyed it. But how can I tell him I don’t love him the same way anymore? I still love him. He’s done so much for me, and he’s one of the only sure things in my life right now. I need him. But I know I’m not being fair to him. Before the accident we were always perfectly honest with each other, and now I’m keeping the biggest secret of my life.
The accident changed me in so many ways, but my new depression isn’t my biggest concern right now. Because, ever since the accident, I’ve been able to see peoples’ auras. And though it’s freaking me out beyond belief, what am I supposed to do? Lee is the only one that knows, but I don’t dare tell anyone I’m psychic.
I just don’t know how much more I can take. I made myself a promise—that I’d be back to my old self by the time school started. But that’s only a couple weeks away, and I’m pretty sure I’m never going to be me again. Too much has happened. Too much has changed. But if I’m not Kate Bennett, then who am I?
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing that with us!
Everyone make sure to go get the book when it’s released. Since it will be released on my birthday, you know it’s a good book! 🙂